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Red and White Queens - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Red and White Queens - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 5 0 Clone Squad - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Clone Squad - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 5 0 Clone Trooper - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Clone Trooper - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 1 1 Power Girl/Nega Power Girl -Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Power Girl/Nega Power Girl -Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 7 0 Shepard - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Shepard - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 2 5 Aerith- Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Aerith- Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 2 0 Red Sonja 2 - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Red Sonja 2 - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 5 0 Red Sonja 1 - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Red Sonja 1 - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 9 0 Starfire - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 by ShadowRoadz Starfire - Comic-Con Chicago 2012 :iconshadowroadz:ShadowRoadz 15 3
It was cold that day, just like the day she died.
Lysander stood out over her grave, remembering how quickly she'd slipped away from them. Cancer did that. Took people in a flash, without regard to life or love. Without regard to family, friends, dreams, hopes, or prayers. It just took. All it ever did. And it took her from him, from everyone that she had mattered to, and he hated that more than he hated anything else in his entire life.
A lit cigarette was clamped between his lips, the tip burning away in the autumn air, sending a choking haze aloft on the breeze. With all the dried, dead leaves around, the cemetery could easily turn into a tinderbox with one spark, but Lysander honestly couldn't bring himself to worry about something so trivial. He took a long drag from the smoking stick of tar and chemicals, his gaze dark and pensive.
Memories surged in his head, unfettered by his hate or his pain. Frost slick windows, cold wind rattling against them, the sterile white and gray of t
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Broken Hearts, Torn Up Letters
Broken Hearts and Torn Up Letters
Can we even describe the pain of a broken heart?
To know that whenever she sees my face or hears my name she will think and act in fear and shame and uncertainty?
Do I look out and see her face everywhere I go? Even if it is a face only visible through illusions, pictures and drawings?
I write something to try and tell her I was wrong, that I didn't mean it to sound like that. But I tear up the pages, delete the words, scrap the e-mail. It doesn't matter, she won't read it anyways.
What can I hope to achieve anyways? It's not like even if she was ok, we'd ever last a day.
If she is a light, I am a shadow. If she were a flickering flame, I would be the ashes. Nothing consequential to her, just something that cannot help itself but be drawn to that lights she gives off.
I really am stupid.
Two damn years I never said a word to her, and soon as I do I blow it. She'll never even think of talking to me now.
Even if I confront her, all she does is say she's
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True Love..?
A pulse shoots down my spine,
Lightning to veins, fire to my skin.
My aches and pains intensify, as if
They too feel a yearning, coming
Forth, boiling deep within.
My heart, so heavy, so laden with
Grief, regrets, and lost chances
Still in tattered pieces from so
Many dark, crushed romances.
Passion again smolders, deep
In my core, my soul ablaze
With deepest love once more.
My eyes deceive, to all else
I am blind, but for her alone,
I see a gentle soul, so kind.
I see her now, so vibrant and
Soft, if she spoke but a word,
My heart would fly aloft.
Yet…is my love misplaced?
Have I been too deep in it's hold?
Is time so far stretched, are we seen
As only young and old?
Do my words fall, on deaf ears alone,
And am I unworthy of her, despite all
Love I have shown?
Is there such a chasm between us, one
I cannot cross? Am I doomed to harbor,
Alone, these feelings, in loss?
Will my brittle heart shatter, in shards
Upon the floor, will I go unanswered
And unloved once more?
This pulse, i
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Every time I think something is finally going right, God or Fate or whatever the hell it is decides to rear back and kick me right in the teeth. 

In the span of a month I have lost, maybe for good, the woman who is my best friend (maybe even the love of my life) with no sign of knowing when or if I'll ever find her again, and then I just got the news that my other friend, one of the other brightest, smartest and liveliest women I know, has been refused for a double lung transplant at every center for it in the country. Without which, due to her condition of living for over 15 years with pulmonary hypertension, she will likely only live another year, maybe two years at best. 

I am so goddamn tired. I am tired of having my heart kicked around like a freaking soup can tossed into rush hour traffic, tired of always doing the right goddamn thing by everybody and getting nothing but utter crap in return, and tired of having the things and people I love most snatched away from me without a single damn thing I can do about it, no matter how hard I try. 

If this keeps up, I don't know what or who I'll be before long... if I'm even still here when all is said and done. What the hell do I do after everything that really, truly matters to me is either in shambles or out of my reach to fix or change? 


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